Had ice cream twice today....pretty sure that's a diet no-no. Breakfast was a piece of whole wheat toast, a banana, some egg whites and veggies....lunch was a veggie platter, grapes and some Trader's penne ala vodka....had a toasted almond ice cream bar and then went to this fantastic ice cream place down the street....bad!! Dinner was a salad from subway...prolly not the worst eating, definately not the best, but I'm hoping to pull out at least a 1lb loss....getting there!!!!

Slacking already....

I promised to post daily....and I've failed...but I'm still here...today is a good day...yesterday - not so much...official weigh in was 257, putting me down 3.8. I weighed today and got 3 different numbers so I'm not counting today...last night I ate like crap...I loved me some McDonalds....went to work in the AM, sad day, called out from my second job to accompany my husband to his friend's house because the friend's mom just had surgery....we brought her a balloon. This was all after my husband rescued our neighbor who's car died....and on the way home, his clutch died...expensive repair, on top of just buying a house.....so we got towed after standing in the rain and now my husband has been riding his motorcycle and it's been cold and rainy...I ate well today though...bought a microwave omlet maker so I made an egg white omlet with veggies and had a yogurt. For lunch I had a lean pocket and some potatoes and broccoli smart ones dish (hello sodium!!) and for snack had some blackberries and sweet potato chips (not at the same time) and I just had dinner - veggie fried rice and mandarin chicken from Trader Joe's (I know - more sodium). I've had about 64 oz of water but I have gymnastics practice so I'm hoping to drink at least 20 more....hopefully by Thursday I will have flushed all this salt out....how are you?

Eating out=no good

I've come to the realization that eating out is totally no good for me! I know, duh~ I went to 99 with my husband Friday night and we shared the steak and cheese spring rolls....I knew those were no good for me but whoa!!! So I figured I was being good by getting the chicken fajitas - I don't really like sour cream or all the salsa stuff so it was basically chicken, peppers, onions, lettuce, cheese and a shell...I made 2 and brought the rest home...holy 1400 calories!!! Yesterday, the only thing I ate was food from Olive Garden.....yikes....4 bread sticks, one salad and the 5 cheese ziti al forno is 2000 calories!!! I did have an NSV though, I drank like 100 oz of water since I knew I was going to be high on sodium and I'm down to one coffee and one diet soda a day....I was in the gym for 4 hours yesterday too so I got a little workout. My husband brought me home dinner and I didn't eat it until now. He got me a salad, bread and spaghetti from our favorite italian joint....I just had the piece of bread, salad and a small bowl of spaghetti....I'm sure high in calories....but I only ate a little bit and I'm full - I think my tummy is shrinking....I'm also taking my metformin which my dad always said killed his appetite...and I'm down 4 pounds this week....I know I need to be more strict with my food...especially during the weekend...but it feels good to be invested in myself!

Down another .4 today woot woot!!!! I did so good today, wasn't hungry and barely ate....breakfast was an oatmeal packet and an applesauce, no snack, lunch was a garden salad from panera and a half sandwhich totalling on 440 calories and 19 g of fat - oh and a tiny apple! and then in the afternoon I had some crackers and a kaughing cow cheese...I've been home a half hour and already demolished a big piece of bread with butter and a small piece of that desert I made - it's not calling my name...hubby should be home soon and we were planning on going out to eat....yuck...my mouth needs to lock at 6pm....

Update - I just inputted all my food into Fitday....hated to but I'm only at 1300 calories and 45 grams of fat....which leave me enough to enjoy dinner!!

I went to the buffet tonight, and survived....wasn't all that good, but I don't think I've affected my loss....hoping to survive the weekend - that's what always kills me...but I need to keep doing this, to make a difference in my appearance, and my life!

The daily post....3 days in a row!! A record for me....Had an awesome day yesterday, then decided I wanted some popcorn, the whole bag, with added butter...shoot me now....I need my mouth to have a door that shuts on it's own!! Thought I was doing great today...somewhere crashed and burned...started the day with a banana and cream of wheat, lunch was rice chips, a ham sandwhich with 3 pieces of ham, one piece of cheese and a tsp of light mayo and a cup of strawberries....for afternoon snack I had some animal crackers, dinner was a grilled chicken breast, 1.5 cups broccoli and 15 tater tots and a few small pieces of bread with butter....but I made this yummy smores desert and had a large piece of that....putting me over 2000 calories...weighed myself today, down to 258.4....small win for me....I've been drinking water, taking my pills and vitamins and I'm hoping that todays 4 hours of house cleaning helped burn off dinner...slowly but surely I'm getting back into my groove!

Re-committed

Part of re-commiting to this journey is going to be blogging daily...I've let that slip to...I've let go of everything, except food which has been flying freely into my mouth! Today when I got home from work, I wanted to binge so bad....just plow through anything on the counter....but I was good today...for breakfast I had 1c cheerios with 4 oz of 1% milk and a banana, for snack I had the last of some chex mix so that temptation is gone, for lunch I had a nice salad and two small whole wheat dinner rolls, for snack I had a small piece of angel food cake and a 100 calorie Special K bar (my two afternoon snacks were spread out a bit) and instead of binging, I popped a serving of peanuts while I made dinner - I had turkey keilbasa with grilled onions and peppers with some sweet potato mashed potatoes...I made a seperate less healthy meal for my spouse because he won't eat sweet potatoes or peppers. I've done two loads of laundry and taken a shower and because I only cooked for myself, I have food left over for another day. I've drunk about 50-60 oz of water today and I'm going to gymnastics practice so I will drink more then and I am hoping to go to bed early tomorrow so I can be productive at home. I've decided to weigh myself daily for the first little bit because I need either encouragement or a kick in the rear....I can not celebrate small successes because I allow myself to cheat...but today was a good day, the second day or the rest of my life and I was already down 2lbs...just water and tomorrow I could be up, but for now, I'm looking forward to going to practice for 2 hours and coming home to some fruit and sleep....here's to looking forward!

Disgusted

I am so disguested with myself...I have let myself get back to square one...well minus 15 pounds but that's nothing to write home about. I went to buy a bathing suit on Saturday because I was having a swim practice with my gymnastics team and didn't feel like digging mine out...and nothing fit...I was just about ready to check out maternity....my stomach has gotten so huge...I agree to do my bike ride again and this is not how I want to look. So today, I gave up food again...hopefully for good! And I'm getting back into my gym groove....I just feel lousy and my hubby and I just bought our first house so now seems as good a time as any to embark on a new journey....I spend all of my energy trying to improve the lives of others but no energy on trying to improve myself...I physically feel sick, emotionally feel sick and just look lousy...so please, read my blog, leave comments, suggestions....keep me going!