Tuesday, April 1, 2008

When a habit becomes permanent

I think my brain is starting to think skinny. I had an attrocious week last week and even yesterday. I hadn't gone shopping and I couldn't fathom dragging myself into the kitchen to cool or prepare meals for the day - I couldn't. I know that that's a lousy excuse and exactly how I got here and why I look the way I do. But on my way to work, I had a mini-epiphany. All last week, I still drank over 100 ozs of water. The fat me wouldn't drink all that water, why bother. But the new me is very interested in making these changes permanent. Also, I ate fast food, pizza, garbage all last week and now I'm looking forward to grocery shopping because that fast food doesn't appeal to me. I don't want it anymore. It tastes like crap. Part of me is sad to say that because it's been a part of my life for so long, but part of me thinks I've turned the corner. I'm going to be posting a bit more today - I seem to have a lot on my mind...

2 comments:

Erin said...

I've had that ephipany when I walk by something I used to always buy that was horrible...pizza, brownies, cake mixes...you know all the good stuff. Now I realize I'm better off having some water and a salad...I kind of like thinking like a skinny person.

Erin

Helen said...

I know how you feel.....afetr a weigh-in i always used to have a 'naughty' dinner...pizza or chinese or something....i'd bank points for it but tell myself that it was my reward and my one naughty treat per week.....i soon realised it actually didn't taste that good.....it was just a psychological thing, eating something 'naughty'....now i come home to a healthy meal and enjoy it much more...well done you!!! If we keep thinking skinny, one day we'll be skinny!