I'm down another pound....despite spending the whole week thinking I'd finally stopped losing weight....not in a good modd, but just updating in case anyone was interested...

So I'm down .6 since last weekend, and I still have all of this weekend to go. I'm not feeling so hot today so it's should be a light eating dat and I'm making a roaster chicken tonight...yummy and healthy!! I'm back on track and hopefully after next week, will show more of a loss and can continue on my quest to be happy, healthy and hot!

Stress and Disappointment

I am stressing myself out over this weight loss thing, and I'm not sure why. I've been weighing myself an inordinate number of times. I don't know if I'm magically expecting to be 50 pounds less....or just so afraid I'll fail that the daily weighings are reassuring....but I'm down a total of 16 pounds. Over the last four or five days though, I'm up four pounds...not really budging, although I haven't had a good weigh in in nearly a week...and I think I'm ovulating....but it bothers me. It also bothers me that I've lost 16 pounds and no one's noticed....My friend's baby is 13 pounds, and someone would surely notice if he was missing...am I that fat? I just hope I continue to lose, at a much slower pace...and that I can proverbially get over myself....and I'm glad my weight loss buddy is back in the game!

Day off weigh in and oh so delicious discovery!

So I had the most wonderful day today!! Got to sleep in late because it was my day off, which meant it's a weigh in day. I'm down a total of ten pounds since New Years!! And I am so excited. And I got to spend this wonderful day with Heather...who's helping with me with this losing weight thing (Thanks!). So we went to Subway for lunch and had some sandwiches and chips..not too bad...then we got a craving for Cold Stone. We figured out that their light vanilla ice cream with strawberries and marshmellows is actually not that bad for you. And things got even better when we went to Target and I got this neat cover for my new Ipod and I found out that they make 100 calorie chocolate bars.

So I had my first real bad day today. I did good all day, a little higher in fat than usual, since I had steak and mac and cheese, but still within limits. But we had company today....and they wanted dessert and I am oh so good at making dessert. So I made a cake and brownies...I'm only planning on having a piece of each and I know it won't break me. And I don't normally eat like that, even when I'm being fat...so I'm hoping that I can spend the week being good and we'll keep up the losses!

So, this is my official before picture...My sister-in-law took this on New Years Day. I think I look like spongebob...not a good thing. I'm going to try and wear this same outfit for every picture and see if we can notice a change...

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!!! So I just randomly stepped on the scale in passing....not thinking anything would change...and I'd had a bad lunch yesterday....but the scale was loving me....I'm down lower than I've been for the last 6 months...I am rejuvenated...and excited....and thanks to everyone who's left supportive comments...it's muchly appreciated!

It's been a week officially today. So I weighed in this morning. The official result is 3 pounds this week. Sadly, I'm disappointed because I weighed in on Saturday and it was two pounds less than this morning's reading. So I'm going to change my weigh in to Saturday since I'm awake a lot longer than I was this morning which gives me time to get rid of the fluidy feeling in the morning. And it's that time of the month, so by Saturday, there may be less of me =). Six more pounds and I'm less than I have been for quite some time. 20 pounds and I'm less than I was this time last year....I can't wait!

Falling off the wagon...

I feel like I've fallen off the wagon. I've had two days where I felt like I was eating really horribly....and then I put in all the information into FitDay and it wasn't too bad. Yet I feel guilty because I wasn't eating salad and fruit all day. But for me to be successful, it needs to be OK to have these kinds of days. If all I eat is fruits and veggies, I'm never going to make it. And when I stepped on the scale today to make sure I hadn't done any damage, I hadn't really. But I feel guilty so if I'm going to be honest and do this...I need to say "I feel guilty". And I got my period today which just exemplifies any feelings I'm having....so Tomorrow is a new day and I'm going to jump in with both feet!!!

So here it is six days into the madness...the first month is always easy though. Everyone's dieting for New Years. And I feel like I've been really good so far. Except yesterday I ate over 2000 calories. It shouldn't bother me though because my FitDay program said I need to eat 786 less calories than I burn and it figures that I burn around 3500....so 2000 is actually 1500 less....but I still feel guilty...but I ate good. For breakast I had a bagel with cream cheese...that was my worst decision of the day but I had all day to burn it off. I had an apple and some honey mustard pretzels for snack. For lunch I had a wonderful salad with regular dressing but only a tablespoon and some plain pasta. On the way home from work I had some animal crackers. For dinner I had some turkey breast, a half cup of rice with a tiny bit of diet butter and a huge bowl of veggies. And a glass of milk. I have a couple of friends who are bone thin who drink milk in mass quantities so I think that's the secret. And like 5 hours after I ate dinner I had a big bowl of oatmeal. I don't think that it's that bad, but it's a tiny bit over 2000 calories. And instead of realizing that it's better than what I used to eat - typically I'd go to Dunkin or Duchess and either get an egg and cheese sandwhich and a coffee full of crap, the for lunch I'd go to Wendy's and get a burger and a large fry or a chilli, baked potato and caesar salad (but it's salad - bull). Then I might stop at a fast food restaurant on the way home for a "snack", that was just as big as lunch. I'd get home not long after that and convince Steve that we needed to order out...some pizza, some chinese, Boston Market....I was eating close to 3500 calories then and over 100 grams of fat compared to the 65 you're supposed to have. And today's going to be a real test. I have a gymnastics meet...there's nothing to eat there and no time to really eat and then we always go out to eat and I always rationalize it that I worked hard spotting, but I really didn't...so I'm going to try and be good...and we'll see how that goes...and hopefully I will show a good loss this week...I've already cheated and stepped on the scale twice and Im down 4.6 pounds, but that's just water weight...I need to set up mini goals., maybe I'll do that tomorrow...

So here it is, the first day of 2008...and I feel like shit...I look like shit....and I'm sick of it. Over the last couple of days, I've gotten rid of most of my clothes...given them to friends and family who'll give them more use....gotten rid of lots of shoes too. My boss told me that I look like crap...not in those words, but basically that I dress like shit and don't put any effort into my appearance....so I'm done looking like crap. My New Years resolution is: drink less soda, lose at least 3 pounds per month for the next year, walk on my elliptical at least 3 times per week, drink 8 glasses of water a day, use my FitDay and here, and take my Meridia...let see if I can do it!