Not Dead!

Well, the good new is I'm not dead...but that's also the bad news. I've been missing for awhile...obviously....somewhere in May I decided to join the gym, started changing my eating habits and decided to go back to Sensa....didn't make much progress, suffered and incomplete pregnancy and welcomed myself to the wonderful world of depression...while I was down in the depths, I had a conversation with a "friend" that was so painful that I decided to cut off contact with most...but I pulled myself together and my husband and I got a ton of work done on the house so we could host a 4th of July party - which went great!! I just got back from vacation - went to Kentucky for a Nascar race...but discovered on the day I left that I have significant food allergies...as in everything!! My diet has changed DRAMATICALLY~~ And as a result, I've lost 6.6 pounds in a week. I've been using Loseit which is an Ipod app for tracking calories and exercise....and it's been posting my results on facebook...not cool...but I've gotten lots of support and it's weird to see it that way...I rode my bike for 17 miles today which is apparently good for 1000 calories....so I'm hanging in there and if nothing else, these allergies will help me to be healthy again!

Weigh in

I lost two pounds this week - wooohooo!! But have you ever had one of those weeks where you felt like you lost more? A few days ago I weighed less than I did today. I've also noticed that when I work out like crazy and I'm sore, my weight goes up. I will just have to hope as the soreness fades, the scales reflect the true effort I've been making!! I feel like I've got it!!

The Current plan!

So on Tuesday I started the Sensa 10 day kick start and my official 6 month quest into the wonderful world of Sensa. I have to say that the meals have been delicious!!! I have been really surprised! And I'm not hungry...except when I come home...I've been snacking...and rationalizing it by saying that I'm only eating 1500 calories a day which is not enough...or I say I went to the gym today....either way, I feel in control and in charge of this...I'm going to the gym 4 days this week and doing yard work this weekend if it stops raining. I'm conscientiously trying to make the right decisions. I want this...I need this!

Joined the gym today - Planet Fitness. For $20 a month, I can use any PF in the country, unlimited tanning (I know, bad), unlimited massage chair, I can bring a friend to my "home center" and 1/2 off the drinks....I have tons of friends all over the state who have memberships and people who want to go with me...I am on board!! I have a 10 day Sensa starter kit, 6 months of Sensa and a desire to change my life....I just need to get through 6 more days of prednisone and start....I hate my life...and I am in control of my life...here's to me!!

Return of the MOJO~

I feel like I'm finally getting my groove on!!! I went to PT at 6AM 3 days this week - and it was good!! I woke up early every day and didn't feel any more exhausted than normal. I forced myself to go to bed early. I spent a lot of time this week helping a friend edit her thesis...I'm proud of her - she did a great job!! Despite today being Easter ( Happy Easter), we made it to Lowes and bought a rake and I spent 2 hours outside raking...cleaned out my tulips and one bed of bushes and cleaned up the back of the house...what a mess!! I even found two men's sneakers and one little girl's shoe...then I moved into the house and emptied 3 boxes which meant reorganizing every cabinet....I am so exhausted...but then I made and ate dinner, made lunch for my husband and I and put away some laundry.....the husband has done some stuff on the house too...we're finally both working on it! I bought some more Sensa stuff....a carrying container, some chews and a 10 day jump start...May 1st - here I come!!! The lawn mower and the bike both made it to the shop for their tune ups so I should be mowing and riding soon...and gyming it....here's hoping this mojo continues!!

Lost MOJO

Somewhere along the way, in all of my planning and preparing, I had a failure to launch moment....as in I never did anything. I've lacked motivation on all fronts. Today I"ve been somewhat productive. I got up and made breakfast and lunch, took a shower, made it to Target for some storage bins and went through some boxes. There's now a pile of things that need to go up in the attic for storage and a very long list of very short projects that I'd love my spouse to get done! Things like hang my bulletin and cork boards, put up the curtains, finish painting the dining room....and we should be getting a dumpster soon with the neighbor so that will erradicate so much clutter in our house and yard. I've been trying to bag up garbage so there's less stuff but it also feels like I've been buying a lot of stuff and I still haven't unpacked most of my belongings. I'm hoping to finish organizing the office and closet so there's nothing in the office but the original 3 peices of furniture....if I get that done, my dresser can temporarily make it in here and I can unpack more of my clothes....I also bought totes to start organizing my health a beauty products....I just want this mess done! Starting tomorrow, I'm going to PT at 6am because I'm tired of racing to make it there after work and not getting home until 7 or 8. I've also layed low with the social obligations. I'm feeling rather burned out for the same reason. If I can sustain getting up that early, I'd like to try going to the gym early too. May, I've decided is Sensa month so hopefully between going to the gym in the AM and the Sensa, I can get back on track. No gains but definately no losses!!

Things have been a bit different since starting the fruit and vegetable challenge at work. And in a good a way...My goal is to try and eat 9 servings of fruits and veggies so I'm eating so much more than usual....which makes me feel like a fat ass until I really think about the calorie content..here's what I ate today - does this sound crazy or actually healthy? Breakfast: 2 clementines 1-6oz fat free strawberry yogurt 1 pkg of instant oatmeal with fiber Lunch: 3 cups salad with peppers, cukes, onion, celery, carrots, ff feta, ff croutons, 1 piece deli ham, craisins and low fat raspberry dressing 2 mini bagels with 2 tbsp whipped cream cheese 1-100 calorie pkg of almonds Dinner: 1 cup onions and pepper strips 1 cup brown rice 2 breaded chicken strips - cooked in stir fry Snack: 1 cup potato chips I know the potato chips are bad...but it was the last of the bag. I don't know. The thing that's sticking with me from my current diet book reading is getting rid of High Fructose Corn Syrup. By no means a novel idea and it's something that lots of diets recommend but suddenly it's become important to me. Obviously the easiest way to get rid of HFCS is by eating more fresh stuff which is what this challenge is pushing me to do...I'm hoping in the process I'll lose weight too...