This is harder than I remember it being

Damn....I just typed a whole post here...a good one too and I had an error...grr....

Starting Anew

The damage - 249.2...up about 10 pounds from my lowest this year. I'm a bit disappointed that I wasn't able to maintain my loss and possibly add to that, but it is what it is and I need to move forward.
The plan - use Fitday to at least track my daily eating. I am doing my bike ride in less than 3 weeks so I'll be training hard for that. I'm going to start seeing my trainer 3x per week and I burn about 500-1000 calories with him...and I'm back to gymnastics full time starting next week so that's more activity.
I'm hoping that all of this will translate into some weight loss!!

I passed!!!

My months of studying have finally ended in the result I was hoping for - I passed. I am now officially a Licensed Clinical Social Worker!! Tomorrow is day 1 of my challenge to lose 20lbs by New Years....I lost a bit this year and I'm hoping to lose a bit more...of course I choose a day in a week where everyone wants to celebrate...tomorrow we're having a party for one of my co-workers who's a first time grandma and I'm going out to dinner to celebrate...who knows what else this week brings but I'm really hoping to kick this in the butt!!! My bike ride is in 20 days too!! It's not too late if you want to be my email buddy (MaryFran...I'm going to get back to you one of these days!!) Thanks!

Help me x2

Hi everyone...I'm back from vacation...it was good, I'll post pics soon!! I need help though....today was supposed to be the day that we had to have our fundraising money in by....I'm short by $100....please, if anyone could donate $5, it means everything to me...I'm riding in honor of my dad..who dealt with kidney disease and who I miss terribly...who I'm sure if proud of me for doing this again, so please help, pass this on to anyone you know who'd help!! Here's the link to donate!! https://www.tourdavita.org/donate/Megan_Gervais_1407/index.html

The second thing I need help with is I need a diet buddy...I am serious about kicking off another weight loss effort...but I'm looking for a blog buddy, an email buddy, a facebook buddy and AIM buddy...anyone who's willing to talk to me nearly daily to discuss my day....I have an ulterior motive (not a bad one!) that I'll share with the lucky one...but I'm looking to shed some serious weight between now and next spring...thanks!!

For every good day I've had, it seems a few bad have followed...Lately it feels like everyone's feeling the need to be super critical of me...I can't seem to do anything right...and I'm ok with criticism..it makes me a better person...but the constant barage of it is wearing me down. Training is going well...I finally bought a bike and I love it!!! My weight is up and down but I feel like I'm looking different. My dad's birthday would've been Friday - he would've been 66. I really miss him.... My hubby's best friend is getting married on Sunday and we're going away on vacation Monday...can't wait! How is everyone else doing?

Jealous

I am jealous of everyone who has summers off.
I am jealous of everyone who still has their parents.
I am jealous of everyone who makes more money than me, has less debt than me.
I am jealous of everyone getting married now, despite the fact that I'm married and love my husband.
I am jealous of all the first time home buyers while we're still trying to get our affairs in order.
I am jealous of everyone who's household has two full time wage earners.
I am jealous of everyone who's passed the LCSW test.
I am jealous of all my fellow riders who have new bikes when all I have is a busted mountain bike....
I am jealous of a lot of things....and am struggling to move forward when it feels like everything is pushing me back!

Thank you and HELP ME

First I want to thank the 7 people who still read my blog...and thank you to the handful of lurkers as well. It is nice to feel heard and share a common struggle...speaking of struggle...I am eating everything in sight! I have been training with my trainer now for a month and a half and I feel so totally different but I haven't lost any weight...and part of my problem is that I'm eating too much. I just went shopping tonight and the house has food but my life has been crazy....went to a concert, had a picnic, went to a team party, working two jobs, going to the gym and getting home late...the excuses are innumerable...this week I have a training session tomorrow and work before and after, Wednesday I have work then going to a chiropractor, Thursday is work and a training session and Friday is a white water rafting party for one of my gymnasts...Saturday I have off for once and hope to spend with hubby and Sunday I'm going to the circus....somewhere in there I need to study. Finally...just reaching out there...I still need more donations for my bike ride....for the actual group and for myself....I'm trying to buy a nice bike since this is something I really enjoy and I need to pay for my airfare...so if anyone is willing to donate, here's my link: https://www.tourdavita.org/donate/Megan_Gervais_1407/index.html