Monday, July 13, 2009

Jealous

I am jealous of everyone who has summers off.
I am jealous of everyone who still has their parents.
I am jealous of everyone who makes more money than me, has less debt than me.
I am jealous of everyone getting married now, despite the fact that I'm married and love my husband.
I am jealous of all the first time home buyers while we're still trying to get our affairs in order.
I am jealous of everyone who's household has two full time wage earners.
I am jealous of everyone who's passed the LCSW test.
I am jealous of all my fellow riders who have new bikes when all I have is a busted mountain bike....
I am jealous of a lot of things....and am struggling to move forward when it feels like everything is pushing me back!

5 comments:

Felicia said...

WOW! Rough day? *HUGS*

Cammy said...

I'm working on the jealousy issue myself. It's tough.

If you're in the market for a book that might help, I can highly recommend Martha Beck's "The Joy Diet." (Diet is used to mean a way of living, not a weight loss plan.)
I'm working through this book now, and I had my eyes opened wide this morning by what I uncovered while working through the exercise.

Heather said...

i feel your first three
hang in there...jeolousy is a very ugly thing. i have learned to not be jeolous as much as possible and concentrate on what i do have.

Thinking Thin said...

Awww, sounds like you're having a rough day! Glad to see you stopped by my neck of the woods and yes I'm back (I'm sneaking in time..shhh, don't tell anyone).

As I read your list, someone else is making a list about all the things that you have and they don't. Think about that :). Maybe that will make you feel better

Thinking Thin said...

Oh, and one more thing. You are doing awesome and I'm jealous of that :)