Keeping it going

How do you kep the motivation going....every morning I start out great. Today for example, I packed my food for work (shake for breakfast + vitamins, grilled chicken salad for lunch, cut up fruit for snack plus a fruit bar and some fruit snacks) and I brought my gym bag...my plan was to go workout after work....but lunch time arrived and I was fantisizing about potato chips...and I'd eaten all of the food  I brought...so I went to Walgreens and got a diet soda, a string cheese and some baked lays and then ate that plus my salad and decided I wanted ice cream....just a small serving...and I've thrown my plan to go to the gym out the window because I don't feel like it. Also, my husband and I have been waking up feeling stiff and sore so I'm trying to force him to go matress shopping tonight....I can't do it anymore....but between yesterday's lackluster weigh in 254.8 and feeling bummed....I have no motivation. And most nights, I go on facebook, only to find someone else is pregnant and so I go to bed with plans of fixing myself...and then fall flat on my face. And I want a baby more than anything but I can't seem to stay committed for more than ten minutes....how do you guys do it?

Doing good

So I've been doing the Lyf program for most of the week...5 days now but I'm feeling great. I'm waking up easier in the morning, not stomach sick....was down nearly 6 pounds but I'm sure that was from the stress of my kitty having surgery. She's doing really well too. I ate pizza last night and a garlic bread with cheese....the scale was not friendly this morning...when I think about it though, it has less to do with how bad it was for me and more to do with me being completely allergic to it...I'm such an idiot for eating it. For the past 2 weeks I've been mostly clean and I think ultimately that's made the biggest difference. I just keep getting frustrated that this isn't a smooth easy process....but anything worth fighting for and having shoulnd't be easy right? I just need to keep perservering.

Day 1 Lyf iCHOICE

Yes, it's only day one but as an accomplished and frequent dieter, I can tell pretty quickly if I'm going to be able to tolerate it. The first shake of the morning wasn't too bad. I mixed it with apple juice but I'm going to try it with other juices. The carb and fat inhibitor....well....pretty yucky...but I added crystal light to it and was able to get it down. The vitamins were fine and I didn't throw up which is my usual reaction so that's a plus. I've been drinking a bunch of water and going like crazy which, because the shake is a fluorescent green, now my pee is too!! But if in 30 days, I've lost at least 10 pounds....then it's a win and I'll take it. I'm looking to read some new blogs now that I'm back in the saddle....some inspiration if you will....if anyone has any good ones, please pass them my way!!

Well my weights this week have been all over the place...in fact they're increasing....which is pissing me off because I've been eating nearly clean....small minor oppsies...nothing like before...and last year weight fell off me when I ate clean, this time, not so much....I'm doing ichoice starting next week. It is a program run through lyf.com....one shake, one vitamin pouch and a carb and fat blocking drink that are supposed to detox you of sorts....I have a 30 day package I stole from Groupon...something has got to work!

Day 2

Well I've made it to day 2....of the rest of my life....did a bit better today. Went for a nice long walk today....Was rewarded with an increase in my weight today...can't avoid weighing...I am obsessed....but I am also trying and feel like each day is a step in the right direction!

Updated

So I updated my two weight tickers..and the blogs I read. I've survived day one with only one minor detour. I ate pretty healthy and managed not to eat everything in site. I was primarily allergy free. I took my vitamins. And had a protein shake. And worked out with my trainer....I wish every day was like today....

Lost and Found

A common thread for most of the weight loss community is periods of great success and periods of failure....I have had both and often remarked that I find it fairly easy to lose 20 pounds but incredibly difficult to string together those efforts. My employer is requiring me to work with a wellness coach, provided by my insurance to achieve a goal. The goal I set is to eat clean for one week, starting tomorrow. Last summer I ate clean for 2 months and lost a bunch of weight, seems like a no brainer right? But nothing worth fighting for is ever easy. So tomorrow I embark on my first week of eating clean again. I go to my dr on Saturday to start to figure out why I am unable to get pregnant. Tomorrow becomes the first day of the rest of my life. My husband made fun of me today while we were shopping saying that this was the millionth try....and I just responded I'm going to try again...because if I don't try....I'm dead.