Anniversary

Today is the second anniversary of losing my Dad - he's missed out on 2 years of my life. Some days it feels easier - this isn't one of them. My grandma's in the hospital today too - not good timing at all. Everything seems too similar to my dad. The only good news for today is my weigh in - 10 lbs. I'm not sure how much of it is legitimate but the number this morning was somewhat lower than pre-surgery weights - I'm at least hoping to keep this up!

Weighed in yesterday - scale said 265. Boooo =( I'm pretty sure that a lot of the weight is from the swelling in my shoulder and my apparatus. So I guess that means my weight will go down, in my favor too! I feel like all I've been doing is eating, but that's probably because I'm not doing much else. What I have been eating has been healthy - lots of fruits and veggies. Hopefully by next week, my weight will be going down!

Today is my last day before surgery - I don't even have a surgery time yet. And, we're supposed to have pretty yucky weather tomorrow. I don't want my surgery delayed though - the recovery is already long and my leave from work is already set up...grrr....I got good news and bad news at the dr thursday - good news - only have my arm immobilized for 6 weeks; bad news - has to be at a 15 degree angle for those 6 weeks, 24 hours a day....so I'm going to look dumb...I know, I know...what else is new =). I'll weigh in tomorrow morning and try to post it...I'm aiming for 15 pounds in thos 6 weeks - I know it's a huge number but I tend to lose fast the first week or 2 and I don't eat much when it's too much work - Hopefully I'll be able to continue to blog....it may be a bit before I'm typing but I'll keep visiting everyone!! See you soon!

Sometimes looking forward means looking back too!

I did one of these for 2009/2010 - I think it would be good to see what a difference a year makes!

1. Was 2010 good for you? It was a painful year emotionally, but a year I grew. And we bought a house so we're moving in the right direction!
2. What was your favorite moment of the year? Buying our first house
3. What was your worst moment of the year? The day I lost my beloved Pumpkin - July 13th =(
4. Where were you when 2010 began? At home watching movies with Tracy and Steve
5. Who were you with? Just me! My hubby came up to bed around 11:30
6. Where were you when 2010 ended? Passed out in bed!
7. Did you keep your new years resolution of 2010? I did better this year than in years passed but gave up too quickly when other things happened.
8. Do you have a new years resolution for 2011? Take care of the things I've been neglecting, primarily myself, so I can move forward with my life.
9. Did you fall in love in 2010? Nope, I already have my love!
10. Did you make any new friends in 2010? I met some really neat new people but not necessarily became friends with them. I did get a bit closer to some people in my life so I guess you count those as new friends!
11. What was your favorite month of 2010? September.
12. Why this month? Tour DaVita!.
13. Did you travel outside of the US in 2010? No.
14. How many different places did you travel to in 2010? Washington, Maryland and Massachusetts.
15. Did you miss anybody in the past year? I miss my father every day.
16. What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2010? Love and other drugs.
17. What was your favorite song from 2010? Broken Wing.
18. How many concerts or plays did you see in 2010? Two concerts.
19. Did you have a favorite concert in 2010? Aaron Lewis - saw him twice.
20. What was your favorite book in 2010? Dear John.
21. Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year? No regrets....
22. What was the biggest lie you told in 2010? I've had to change myself to be fake in a lot of situations - I'm not proud of that but it's definately important to take the high road sometimes. 23. Did you treat somebody badly in 2010? I should be kinder to my mother....
24. Did somebody treat you badly in 2010?Yes, but I don't want to talk about it.
25. What was your proudest moment of 2010? Riding more of Tour DaVita than I ever have!
26. What was your most embarrassing moment of 2010? I yelled out something to a friend in a store and I didn't think anyone else was around - I was wrong...
27. If you could go back to any moment of 2010 and change something, what would it be? I need to sharpen up my open mouth insert foot reflex - I tend to piss everyone off...and I always regret it ...
28. Where did you work in 2010? I work at DaVita.
29. Favorite TV shows(s) of 2010? The Secret Life of an American Teenager.
30. Favorite Band(s) of 2010? Shinedown, Nickelback
31. Favorite Food in 2010? We ate a lot of take out - it used to be my favorite!
32. Favorite Drink in 2010? Diet soda, which I know will kill me
33. Favorite Place in 2010? Washington State - it is so beautiful and so different from CT
34. Favorite person(s) to be with in 2010? Myself - and sometimes it's the hardest person to be around
35. Favorite person(s) to talk to in 2010? Jon - my trainer....strange as it sounds, he reads me pretty easily and calls it like it is....no bullshit with him...and he pushes me to do for me and be a better person
36. Favorite trip in 2010? Washington
37. Favorite stores in 2010? Lane Bryant and the Kitchen Collection
38. Hardest thing you had to go through in 2010? My cat and my house....
39. Most exciting moment(s) in 2010? Tour DaVita and buying a house
40. Funniest moment(s) in 2010? Hard to pick....

Motivation/Inspiration

I have to say, that it's been very liberating to not have a New Years Resolution - I am proud to say that I'm not lumped in with the 100's of people who just joined the gym, or bulked up on veggies....good for everyone who did though, I admire your commitment. I've been reading lots of blogs this week - I need to some new blog friends - and I see lots of people who are committing to change this year. I am too - just 18 days into the year....and I'm finding reading everyone's stuff to just help me to build excitement for my own quest. I'm not setting crazy goals, I'm not setting more than one - as it stands now - I want to lose 15lbs between my surgery and March 1st. I will do an official weigh in on Jan. 17th. I want my blog to be entertaining, motivating, a window into my little life - I want it to be positive and supportive and I want people to enjoy it, enjoy me...I'm really looking forward to beginning a relationship with myself, for myself - Please join me!

New Years 2011

I'm sure the world of blogging is gearing up for 2011 with promises to change.....I too, have made promises for this year, but unlike years past - mine don't start today. Obviously vowing to lose weight for the new year has not worked for me in the past, so I'd be rather foolish to think it would this year. 2011 looks very different for me...there are lots of things I want to accomplish and while 2010 wasn't the easiest year by far - I grew more in this past year than I had in many prior. I want to continue that...that one's easy. And I do want to lose weight for 2011...once and for all...but I'm not going to get swept up in the Resolutions. This year I have an impending surgery - January 18th to be exact. That is going to be the start for me. I'm calling this year the year of repair - time for me to get my shoulder fixed, to fix my weight - along with my weight comes my blood pressure, blood sugar and cholesterol. I am using the next 17 days to plow through the home improvement and set up my life with my husband and really be ready to dedicate myself to well, myself =). I am hoping to be far more active with blogging than I have been in the past. We shall see - typing is going to be a challenge. Please leave comments if you stop by, it's been rather lonely here =) Happy New Year!