Sunday, February 1, 2009

100th Post!

I purposely haven't blogged in awhile because I knew this would be my 100th post. I wanted it to be quirky and smart, something to recapture anyone who's continued to read this for the past year....and I found my motivation waning....and couldn't think of anything that would leave a mark.
And then my life suddenly came to a screeching halt. My father died 6 days ago. He was only 65. He had been living with a terminal illness but was doing well.....he had his first hospitalization over New Years and spent the following three weeks feeling great! And then two weeks ago, he asked me to bring him back to the hospital because his leg was swollen and he had a fever. That whole day, everyone asked him how he felt and he kept saying he felt fine...a few days later....he's gone. It's been an awful week....and now that the dust's settled, life needs to restart. And I don't feel ready for that. In fact, I don't feel anything like I used to anymore...
The day before he got sick again I weight 256...up two pounds from the start of the year. The day after he died, I was down to 242....today I'm at 250....I want to get healthy for my dad....he would've wanted me to be happy and healthy....he wouldn't want my weight to hold me back from anything....so starting tomorrow....I am going to work on myself for myself, in honor of my father. And I am honored that my father could be a part of my 100th post!

6 comments:

Chews to Lose said...

I'm incredibly sorry for your loss. I lost my mom in October (she was 57)and I understand how you feel. I think it's great that you want to get healthy - I think sometimes it's easier to fall into the who cares attitude when terrible things happen. I am truly sorry for your loss. I hope things get a little better everyday.

Cammy said...

I'm so very sorry for your loss. And awed that you have chosen such an incredible way to honor your father's life. He lives on through you, and I'm sure he would be proud of your effort.

Take One Stripper Pole said...

Oh wow ... I am so sorry to hear about your father. Just know we are sending you lots of love in Blogland!

Fat 2 Fit said...

I am so sorry about your loss. What you are doing to honor your father is great. He is smiling down on you and will be with you on your weight loss journey. One day at a time...you will get there. HUGS!!!

Big Girl said...

I am so sorry for you sudden loss. Sending you good thoughts.

Anonymous said...

Keep your memories close to your heart and your dad will never be far away.