Progress without Progress

Sadly I have to admit that I have been semi-lazy on the diet horizon. I was charting every day every scrap that went into my mouth and was drinking insane amounts of water. Then I had some menstrual difficulties and became less interested in dieting and changing my life. I’ve come to realize that this has been my downfall all along. So while I was on semi-hiatus, I tried to continue to make good decisions for the most part. The hard part is, is that I feel good. I didn’t post a weigh in for two weeks because the readings were all high and I attributed this to getting my period. I also didn’t do my measurements because I had my period and figured the bloat would skew my readings. But I sucked it up and did my measurements and was down in some places and up in others. And my weigh in yesterday morning was two pounds higher than my all time low, but no biggie. I took my Meridia today hoping that would job something but we’ll have to wait and see. I almost feel like it’s cheating but I definitely need some help and I don’t take it all that regularly. I charted what I ate most days and yesterday was the only day I didn’t prepare all my meals and snacks myself. I realize that good diet behavior doesn’t usually show until several days after starting it so I’m hoping on Saturday, when I can get a true low weight, that things have started to move. But in the mean time, I need to find a way to be OK with the plateaus that are so common to dieting. I also need a gym buddy. Now that Steve’s working 2nd shift, I don’t feel the need to rush home anymore. I’m hoping with the warm weather, I’ll feel inspired to go for walks. I just need to keep plugging…I’ve never successful attempted to lose weight for more than 16 weeks. I’m on week 9 so I’m hoping to keep doing this until I’ve lost all I can, and hoping that this remains a life change….