Not keeping up my end of the bargain

I told myself that I was going to blog more this year than last year, I was going to lose weight, I was going to make an effort to look better....I have such drive and no follow through. I haven't blogged in six weeks....don't worry you haven't missed much. I've been working both jobs faithfully, working out faithfully and trying to deal with some family stuff. My grandma has been sick and my sister in law is quite pregnant. I've lost 13 pounds and am starting to change shape. I have got to constantly remind myself to not be disappointed with the results...I've only worked out six weeks. I am struggling eat right....zero willpower...and my goal is so different now. I want to be healthy and I want a baby....and both things seem so far out. And I feel so guilty spending time on myself, and my husband is giving me a hard time....and I know I could be so much more successful....I just need to keep my goals in sight...someone help me...l