Thursday, October 29, 2009

I'm sure I've lost all my readership...what little I had....I'm barely holding it together here....I keep saying that I'm going to get my act together and really kick this thing in the butt. It hasn't happened yet. I haven't been able to wrap my brain around it....and nothing annoys me more than my lack of commitment....but I don't want to keep writing posts about failing...I came home my bike ride, tried to commit and instead decided to re-do our bathroom. A month later and it's still not painted...the goal this weekend is to finish it. Last week, a classmate of mine committed suicide. He was well liked and a police officer with lots of community ties. I went to his wake, it was like a high school reunion, only no one recognized me...and not because I was suddenly more beautiful than I was in high school, but because I was 100 pounds heavier....I went grocery shopping so the house is stocked with good food and I went back to the gym Tuesday.....I've been busy beyond belief, and I have tons more stuff to of these days I need to commit to myself...I'm not there yet.....but I'm working on it!


Twix said...

I'm still dropping by! :)

The point here is just to keep moving. Which you did!!! So don't be so hard on yourself. ((hugs))

MaryFran said...

I still get your feeds on my google reader!

Sorry to hear about the stress and how busy you've been. The only thing I can say is to sit back, think about why you want to lose the weight. Why you thought it was important to start this journey in the first place. And then think about what you are doing now. Which one is the most important.

I wish I had a simple answer to motivate you and to get you going again, even in the face of a mad schedule and devastating events. But I don't. This is something that you will need to decide to do for YOU and only for you. (I will add that the more you take care of yourself, the better you will be able to handle the stress and to reach out and help others.)

Ok, really long response. But just know taht there are people out there that are rooting for you!