Saturday, October 13, 2007

You know you're fat when a 9 year old notices

So I went to Philly for a few days to visit my old neighbor and some other friends. Any time in the last 5 years I've seen a picture with myself in it, I think I look fat, name it. I always see myself the same in every picture. But now I look back to pictures 5 years ago, and I wish I was that fat, not this fat. Who thought there was a difference? Who thought I'd want to be one versus another...not me. So I went to pick up my neighbors kids from their grandparents and I hadn't seen them in over a year. And her 9 year old says to me " Mrs. Megan, you look different. You're bigger". What does one say to that? My response was "It happens". But on a brighter note, I was really dissapointed after Wednesday. I guess I thought the medication would be magic and I'd just be thin all of a sudden. For the last two weeks, I'd been feeling super fat and disgusting. So I stepped on the scale this morning to see what the damage was and I was down four pounds since Wednesday. I just got my period today too so that should help with more of the weight. And slowly but surely, I'm making changes that are helping my body to change too.

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