Return of the MOJO~

I feel like I'm finally getting my groove on!!! I went to PT at 6AM 3 days this week - and it was good!! I woke up early every day and didn't feel any more exhausted than normal. I forced myself to go to bed early. I spent a lot of time this week helping a friend edit her thesis...I'm proud of her - she did a great job!! Despite today being Easter ( Happy Easter), we made it to Lowes and bought a rake and I spent 2 hours outside raking...cleaned out my tulips and one bed of bushes and cleaned up the back of the house...what a mess!! I even found two men's sneakers and one little girl's shoe...then I moved into the house and emptied 3 boxes which meant reorganizing every cabinet....I am so exhausted...but then I made and ate dinner, made lunch for my husband and I and put away some laundry.....the husband has done some stuff on the house too...we're finally both working on it! I bought some more Sensa stuff....a carrying container, some chews and a 10 day jump start...May 1st - here I come!!! The lawn mower and the bike both made it to the shop for their tune ups so I should be mowing and riding soon...and gyming it....here's hoping this mojo continues!!

Lost MOJO

Somewhere along the way, in all of my planning and preparing, I had a failure to launch moment....as in I never did anything. I've lacked motivation on all fronts. Today I"ve been somewhat productive. I got up and made breakfast and lunch, took a shower, made it to Target for some storage bins and went through some boxes. There's now a pile of things that need to go up in the attic for storage and a very long list of very short projects that I'd love my spouse to get done! Things like hang my bulletin and cork boards, put up the curtains, finish painting the dining room....and we should be getting a dumpster soon with the neighbor so that will erradicate so much clutter in our house and yard. I've been trying to bag up garbage so there's less stuff but it also feels like I've been buying a lot of stuff and I still haven't unpacked most of my belongings. I'm hoping to finish organizing the office and closet so there's nothing in the office but the original 3 peices of furniture....if I get that done, my dresser can temporarily make it in here and I can unpack more of my clothes....I also bought totes to start organizing my health a beauty products....I just want this mess done! Starting tomorrow, I'm going to PT at 6am because I'm tired of racing to make it there after work and not getting home until 7 or 8. I've also layed low with the social obligations. I'm feeling rather burned out for the same reason. If I can sustain getting up that early, I'd like to try going to the gym early too. May, I've decided is Sensa month so hopefully between going to the gym in the AM and the Sensa, I can get back on track. No gains but definately no losses!!

Things have been a bit different since starting the fruit and vegetable challenge at work. And in a good a way...My goal is to try and eat 9 servings of fruits and veggies so I'm eating so much more than usual....which makes me feel like a fat ass until I really think about the calorie content..here's what I ate today - does this sound crazy or actually healthy? Breakfast: 2 clementines 1-6oz fat free strawberry yogurt 1 pkg of instant oatmeal with fiber Lunch: 3 cups salad with peppers, cukes, onion, celery, carrots, ff feta, ff croutons, 1 piece deli ham, craisins and low fat raspberry dressing 2 mini bagels with 2 tbsp whipped cream cheese 1-100 calorie pkg of almonds Dinner: 1 cup onions and pepper strips 1 cup brown rice 2 breaded chicken strips - cooked in stir fry Snack: 1 cup potato chips I know the potato chips are bad...but it was the last of the bag. I don't know. The thing that's sticking with me from my current diet book reading is getting rid of High Fructose Corn Syrup. By no means a novel idea and it's something that lots of diets recommend but suddenly it's become important to me. Obviously the easiest way to get rid of HFCS is by eating more fresh stuff which is what this challenge is pushing me to do...I'm hoping in the process I'll lose weight too...

Today is one of my great friend's Tracy's birthday so I made her dinner. Almost everything is healthy except the potatoes and crescent rolls....the salad is a capri salad - lettuce, carrots, celery, peppers, cucumber, onion, fat free feta, fat free croutons and light raspberry vinegrette. There's also about 3 oz of bonesless skinless chicken breast and sauteed green beans. There's no comment on the crescent rolls but I made the potatoes with 1% milk and low fat butter. And I got in more than 9 servings of fruits and vegetables for my contest. Weight was at 255...what a surprise!

I didn't get selected for Win, Lose or Blog....booo.....but I fully intend to support those who did and will definately apply next time....

T-24 hours

Starting tomorrow, I start another attempt at changing my life, at putting me first, and doing something to keep me alive. I still don't know if I'm picked for Win, Lose or Blog - but I continue to hold out hope. My Colorful Choices challenge starts tomorrow - for those who don't know what it is - my work is sponsoring a challenge where you eat and log as many fruits and veggies as possible for about 6 weeks...I'm using that as a motivator to swap out carbs...I also decided that I'm going to challenge myself to something else. As anyone who's chronically dieted, I have amassed a huge collection of diet books. I secretly think each one is going to teach me something new or be the cure...the same thing I've done with each new diet product. So I'm challenging myself to finally read these books - write a review and maybe even try the techniques the following month. The first book I'm starting with is "The Eat this, not that NO diet diet". I also have 6 months of Sensa which I did well with when I tried it for 2 weeks...I think after this month, I'll go back and really commit to the 6 months....I don't know why I've allowed myself to continue to live like this, especially because it makes me miserable. Why do we do this to ourselves?

Amping myself up

Signing up for Colorful Choice contest at work: check
Lining up trainer to assist with exercise: check
Making plans with a walking buddy: Check
Hearing back from Win, Lose or Blog: still waiting

My current plan is to jump into the weight loss thing 100% on March 28th...one more week...I am maintaining a weight of 255 right now...and I'm ok with that...but I'd love to lose at least 50 lbs by the time I do my bike ride - That's 6 months from now and while I realize it's a stretch, it's still do-able and even if I fall short and only lose 30lbs...I'd be satisfied....I'm watching all these people around me have success and it's time I do the same...

Life is not a spectator sport!

And I need to make physical changes....especially since I have lots of other plans that involve my size....so here's to hoping I get selected for Win, Lose, Or Blog and I can rock and roll this spring/summer!