Down 2.6 this week....hopefully I can have multiple weeks of losses, even if they aren't big and I can feel successful....losing weight is so unrewarding....things need to move faster in order for people to keep it up....

Opps....

Again I've been slacking.....I don't know why I can't focus. I have all of these great ambitions and reasons to do this, I have all of these great tools and when push comes to shove, I just take the high road. I have two contests going on right now....one is between a coworker and myself and everytime we work out, we put a dollar in a jar. The first one to $100 wins. The loser has to buy the other one lunch when we go out to spend our prize money. I'm up to almost ten dollars over nearly 3 weeks....but exercising hasn't been my problem....it's been my eating. I know that realistically I just need to follow my allergen free diet and the weight will pour off....I don't know what my hold up is. The second contest is with a second friend of mine...similar rules....$0.25 for every workout....must either checkin on FB or text pictures....we both use a fitbit....and $1 for every pound lost...weekly weigh ins texted on Mondays....at $20, we go out and do something physically active and the other provides the meal....I'm trying to convince my husband to do something too....if anyone out there wants to wager with me....I'm game - let me know!

Not keeping up my end of the bargain

I told myself that I was going to blog more this year than last year, I was going to lose weight, I was going to make an effort to look better....I have such drive and no follow through. I haven't blogged in six weeks....don't worry you haven't missed much. I've been working both jobs faithfully, working out faithfully and trying to deal with some family stuff. My grandma has been sick and my sister in law is quite pregnant. I've lost 13 pounds and am starting to change shape. I have got to constantly remind myself to not be disappointed with the results...I've only worked out six weeks. I am struggling eat right....zero willpower...and my goal is so different now. I want to be healthy and I want a baby....and both things seem so far out. And I feel so guilty spending time on myself, and my husband is giving me a hard time....and I know I could be so much more successful....I just need to keep my goals in sight...someone help me...l

Hello?

Hey!! Where'd everyone go....I thought I had a fairly decent readership...and now, nothing...I'm actually starting to get back into this and I feel kind of alone....Please come back!! I hope I didn't offend anyone!!

Lazy Body!

Weighed in week one - down 6 pounds...hopped on the scale tonight....definately no love....I have such unreasonable expectations for this....I know I'm doing great but I feel like I should be losing 5 pounds per week. I just want to hit some goal....and not struggle and keep gaining and losing....I want this to work!

Feelin' it!

I feel great today!! I know most days won't feel this way, but I need to relish in the good moments. I got up today and went to work early...worked all day and got to eat real food...did great calorie wise...went and got my allergy shot and then met Jon....had a slamming workout even though it was arms and my arms are weak....then I coached for 2.5 hours....great practice....stopped at the grocery store after that and picked up friendly foods and came home and cooked dinner....I waited too long to eat but I'm working on remedying that....each day the scale starts creaping lower...I am on my way!

Happy New Year

Welcome to 2012....as I say this, I'm gearing up for the most difficult self imposed challenge ever. I have devised a plan to eradicate myself of this fat suit. Of course it doesn't help that I've been watching Biggest Loser pretty obsessively. Remember Jon - he trained me in 2009 for my bike ride and we did mostly crossfit. The difference between then and now is that jon trained me for fun before, this time I'm paying him. He's also ding my diet. For the next 2 weeks I'm doing a detox diet. The only thing I'm allowed to eat for the next 2 weeks is a six shakes made from kale, apples and frozen berries. Oh yeah, I can have water too. I threw up today during my workout and my workout was more of a fitness test than a work up. I am in sad shape. But I am going to change my life....I need to....so here's to 2012 so that I can reach my goals....I want this and I need to keep telling myself I want this! Good luck to everyone else who's embarking in a new year's resolution and a life change!